Public letters

February 28, 2014

Dear future me, It's February 28th February and I'm sat in my University dorm room after just letting Ben Percival in (I'm hoping you're still friends with him, he's a nice guy). You've just gone through your first heartbreak and I'm hoping you've moved on from that now because it's been a year and you should. If you have, then I'm pleased because it means you're living your life; as you should be. If you haven't, then that's okay too. Heartbreak takes a while and it's okay to love and still love. There's nothing you can do about that, it just means it will take a bit longer than we anticipated. I hope you're still friends with him and everyone from Cefn y Coed though because they're decent people and it would be a shame. Maybe you need more time than you originally thought. You should be reading this in your new flat with Llinos, Sarah, Emma and Amanda. The one above the Launderette? If you've ever had a tiff or got annoyed with any of them, remind yourself of why you chose to move in with them. You could have decided you didn't want to with any and you did for a reason - because you love them. Show them the love. Show everyone love. Show the street you walk on love and let it fill you up so it almost hurts. (Love shouldn't hurt, which is why I say almost). Buy a meal for the homeless person sitting outside Morrison's or give someone a 'you are beautiful' sticker to make their day bright. Try and do something every day because that will make you better. And if you're depression has returned, that's okay. I'm here for you - I always have and I always will be. Just like every person that's in your life. It's okay to keep battling, because it means you're a warrior. It means you can save you have battle scars and that you were victorious. If anyone judges you for them, it's down to them not understanding. It's not because you're a horrible person - and I hope you've accepted that by now - it's because you're you and you've battled a different war. Keep fighting and loving and you'll be okay. You might not be great, but it's a place to start so you can be. Healing takes time. Have patience. Breathe. Me.

February 28, 2014

Dear future me, It's February 28th February and I'm sat in my University dorm room after just letting Ben Percival in (I'm hoping you're still friends with him, he's a nice guy). You've just gone through your first heartbreak and I'm hoping you've moved on from that now because it's been a year and you should. If you have, then I'm pleased because it means you're living your life; as you should be. If you haven't, then that's okay too. Heartbreak takes a while and it's okay to love and still love. There's nothing you can do about that, it just means it will take a bit longer than we anticipated. I hope you're still friends with him and everyone from Cefn y Coed though because they're decent people and it would be a shame. Maybe you need more time than you originally thought. You should be reading this in your new flat with Llinos, Sarah, Emma and Amanda. The one above the Launderette? If you've ever had a tiff or got annoyed with any of them, remind yourself of why you chose to move in with them. You could have decided you didn't want to with any and you did for a reason - because you love them. Show them the love. Show everyone love. Show the street you walk on love and let it fill you up so it almost hurts. (Love shouldn't hurt, which is why I say almost). Buy a meal for the homeless person sitting outside Morrison's or give someone a 'you are beautiful' sticker to make their day bright. Try and do something every day because that will make you better. And if you're depression has returned, that's okay. I'm here for you - I always have and I always will be. Just like every person that's in your life. It's okay to keep battling, because it means you're a warrior. It means you can save you have battle scars and that you were victorious. If anyone judges you for them, it's down to them not understanding. It's not because you're a horrible person - and I hope you've accepted that by now - it's because you're you and you've battled a different war. Keep fighting and loving and you'll be okay. You might not be great, but it's a place to start so you can be. Healing takes time. Have patience. Breathe. Me.

February 28, 2014

Dear sister I wrote this a year ago through some website called 'futurepostbox' - it e-mails/posts a letter you write in a year. So I thought I'd try it and you were one of the people I wanted to write one to. I'm sat in my Uni dorm room on Friday 28th February half an hour before I go to give blood... Remember when we used to play granny's and motorbikes when we tried to hide from Mom instead of going to bed? They didn't like that suggestion when I made it here for a drinking game (something about it being too silly); that's us though. If I were to use a word to describe us, it would be 'silly'. There'd be a bunch of other words in there too but that's the main one I think. Part of me wishes we could go back to that time when we didn't care about anything and it was just us two making medicines in the back garden; taping our faces together until it was red; decorating Mom's hair with an infinite amount of bobbles. But a part of me doesn't. We've had to grow up so much so quickly that I sometimes forget about those moments. And I reckon you forget them too sometimes; and we should both remember them. But the reason I say I don't want to go back to those moments is because we've learnt so much that it's made us better people. True, we have things we wish we could change. But doesn't everyone? Ours are just not always visible. You are a strong, independent woman (cliché much?) and I admire you for your bravery; honesty; loyalty. I hope a year from writing this you've found something you love to do and are making something out of it. A job; college course; apprenticeship; university - they would be amazing if you'd accomplished even one of them. But so is talking to a stranger you wouldn't want to. Or answering the phone. I would be proud of you if you'd managed any of them - even getting out the door every day. I'd say prouder, but I can't be because I already am the most I can be. If people ask me about my family, the first person I'd think of is "I have a sister and she's amazing". It's okay to not always be okay. It's something being at Uni has taught me. It's how we deal with it. I've had to face fears and dark thoughts a lot more than I thought I would, albeit sometimes it's got the better of me, but I've discovered I was stronger than I thought I was. I am proud to say you're my sister. I am in awe of who you are and I love you no matter what. Rebeka. xxxxxx

February 28, 2014

Things I love about you.... 1. your smile 2. your laugh 3. your positive 4. your flamboyant red hair 5. your love 6. your looks 7. your amazing personality 8. your intelligence Things you accomplished.... 1. You graduated 2. you have a car 3. you have a good job 4. you have awesome friends 5. you have a great family

February 28, 2014

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February 28, 2014

Hey, Liamy-Poo <3 You're now upstairs playing Mass Effect after cooking me an amazing caserole,om nom nom! This little letter is to tell you that I love you more than anything in this world, you are my whole life and I cannot wait to see where we are next year when you open this. <3 Hopefully, you'll still be my babycakes <3 :) Now, I must go upstairs and interrupt your game with some sexy smooches (the ones you love so much) :P To the furthest star, always.... Love Caitlin <3 XXXX 28/2/14

February 28, 2014

Hey you, Fingers crossed you've passed your first year (which we all know you will) as you would have revised for your exams (start it now!!!!). I'm just sitting in the kitchen of Mason and trying to imagine what life will be like in a years time, I've got some expectations which I am sure you will remember and I have that you have achieved them or are on your way to achieving them. I really hope that you continue to get better with your depression (I know it's tough I've been there) but just remember it is a feeling at it will pass. Just keep in mind the good things in life like your friends and family. Just work hard and you shall be rewarded! Remember life is short so make it worthwhile! Yours always, Bethany x

February 28, 2014

Dear self. I have found this website on stumleupon and thought it would be fun :) i don't know what will be going on with you right now but here on the 28th of February 2014, i was meant to start my dreaded homework about an hour and a half ago but oh well, my laptop consumes my time. I'm going to see Ellie Goulding live in the o2 with Anna tomorrow which fills me with excitement! Things are quite tight money-wise right now, I wonder will much have changed when you're reading this, will things be better, who knows? School drains me so much and it's only fifth year, dear god i dread to think how you're dealing with sixth year work in your time! Thinking of the future scares me a lot, does that still happen to you? The thoughts of college and careers creep into my thoughts and leave me full of worry. Maybe this will alleviate and I will be slightly more confident in my life choices, hopefully. I hate feeling unprepared. I'm beginning to ramble so I will try to keep this short with some last minute advice ( how cringey ). Keep Megan close, she may seem like she's got things organised, you need to talk to her and let her pour her feelings out, she will be reluctant at first but let her know you're there. Secondly, believe in yourself full stop. Thirdly, never forget to show mam and dad how much you appreciate them, help them round the house, look after them the way they have looked after you and meg. And lastly, enjoy everyday, find something good and cling onto it, okay? :) Have fun little future friend Past you lol xo

July 22, 2013

Hello future me, I hope this letter finds you well. I feel like I have come a long way, but at the same I time, it feels like my journey has only just begun. If over the next month you continue to show self discipline and courage you will be a much stronger and more fulfilled person. I am proud of you, and I'm sure you will make prouder still. When you read this letter, take the opportunity to congratulate yourself. Over the last 16 years, you have faced a lot of adversity and setbacks that few have confronted and recovered from. All things considered, although you have lost a lot of time to mental illness, you have matured in a way that leaves the rest of your adult life as an opportunity. For so long it has felt like you were hitting the snooze button on the alarm that is your life. Now you are finally wide awake, and you find yourself on a crisp spring morning, with the whole day in front of you. Congratulations, Farewell, friend.

May 14, 2013

Brate, nikada nemoj da odustaneš od svog sna.. :D To je san o velikoj i moćnoj Srbiji, ne geografski - već ekonomski i po obrazovanju, Srbiji koja pokreće promene u svetu i koja je nosilac slobodarskog duha. Srbija koja se menja svakodnevno na bolje. To je san u kome ljudi veruju u ljude, veruju u to da ljudi mogu da se promene, mogu da odluče da budu pozitivni i da poštuju druge ljude, njihove izbore - koji ponovo ne narušavaju tuđe slobode. To je san u kome bogati ne tlače siromašne, već zajedno sa njima obeduju. U kome ne postojo povlašćeni, niti potlačeni. To je san velike Srbije

February 3, 2013

Kate my love Hope this pre valentine season isn't getting you down, you always want to smash relationships in early feb! The strength that you need is where you give it out so slow down and nourish yourself. If your enroute to Mexico make sure you have planned a few side trips before you go. You can't think or plan in hot climates.... Love you Be strong, but not hard!

February 1, 2013

Dear Allen, I love you. Your Jessi (of the past) <3